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Chapter 54
Time passed on.
A few more
to-morrows, and the party from London would
be arriving. It was
an alarming change;
and Emma was
thinking of it one morning, as what must bring a
great deal to agitate and grieve her, when Mr. Knightley came
in,
and distressing thoughts were put by.
After
the first chat of pleasure he was
silent; and then, in a graver tone, began with,
"I have something to
tell you,
Emma; some news."
"Good or bad?" said she,
quickly, looking up in his face.
"I do not know which it
ought to be
called."
"Oh! good I am sure.--I
see it in
your countenance. You
are trying not
to smile."
"I am afraid," said he,
composing his features, "I am very much afraid, my dear Emma,
that
you will not smile
when you hear it."
"Indeed! but why so?--I
can hardly
imagine that any thing which pleases or amuses you, should not
please
and amuse me too."
"There is one subject,"
he
replied, "I hope but one, on which we do not think alike." He paused a moment, again
smiling, with
his eyes fixed on her face. "Does
nothing
occur to you?-- Do not you recollect?--Harriet
Smith."
Her cheeks flushed at
the name, and she
felt afraid of something, though she knew not what.
"Have you heard from her
yourself
this morning?" cried he. "You have, I believe, and know the
whole."
"No, I have not; I know
nothing;
pray tell me."
"You are prepared for
the worst, I
see--and very bad it is. Harriet Smith marries Robert
Martin."
Emma gave a start, which
did not seem
like being prepared-- and her eyes, in eager gaze, said,
"No, this is impossible!" but her lips were closed.
"It is so, indeed,"
continued
Mr. Knightley; "I have it from Robert Martin himself. He left me not half an
hour ago."
She was still looking at
him with the
most speaking amazement.
"You like it, my Emma,
as little as
I feared.--I wish our opinions were the same.
But in time they will.
Time,
you may be sure, will make one or the other of us think
differently; and, in the meanwhile, we need not talk much on
the
subject."
"You mistake me, you
quite mistake
me," she replied, exerting herself. "It is not that such a circumstance
would now make me unhappy, but I cannot believe it. It seems an
impossibility!-- You cannot mean to say,
that Harriet Smith has accepted
Robert Martin. You
cannot mean that
he has even proposed to her
again--yet. You
only mean, that he
intends it."
"I mean that he has done
it,"
answered Mr. Knightley, with smiling but determined decision,
"and
been
accepted."
"Good God!" she
cried.--"Well!"--Then having recourse to her workbasket, in
excuse
for leaning down her face, and
concealing all the exquisite feelings of delight and
entertainment which she knew she must be expressing, she
added,
"Well, now tell me every thing; make this intelligible to me. How, where, when?--Let me
know it all. I
never was more surprized--but it does
not make me unhappy, I assure you.--How--how has it been
possible?"
"It is a very simple
story. He went to
town on business three days ago, and I got
him to take charge of some
papers which I was wanting to send to John.--He delivered
these
papers to John, at his chambers, and was asked by him to join
their party
the same evening to Astley's. They were going to take
the two eldest
boys to Astley's. The party was to be our brother and sister,
Henry,
John--and Miss Smith. My friend Robert could not resist. They called for him in
their way; were
all extremely amused; and my
brother asked him to dine with them the next day--which he
did--and in
the course of that visit (as I understand) he found an
opportunity of speaking to Harriet; and certainly did not
speak in
vain.--She made him, by her acceptance, as happy even as he is
deserving. He came
down by yesterday's
coach, and was with me this morning immediately
after breakfast, to report his proceedings, first on my
affairs,
and then on his own. This is all that I can relate of the
how, where, and when. Your friend Harriet will make a much
longer
history when you see her.-- She will give you all the minute
particulars, which only woman's language can make
interesting.--In
our
communications we deal only in the great.--However, I must
say,
that
Robert Martin's heart seemed for him, and to me, very
overflowing;
and that he did mention, without its being much to the
purpose,
that on quitting their box at Astley's, my brother took charge
of Mrs. John Knightley and little John, and he followed with
Miss Smith and Henry; and that at one time they were in such a
crowd, as to make Miss Smith rather uneasy."
He stopped.--Emma dared
not attempt any
immediate reply. To
speak, she was
sure would be to betray a most
unreasonable degree of happiness.
She
must wait a moment, or he would think her
mad. Her silence disturbed him; and after
observing her a little while, he added,
"Emma, my love, you said
that this
circumstance would not now make you unhappy; but I am afraid
it
gives
you more pain than you expected. His situation is an evil--but
you
must
consider it as what satisfies your friend; and I will answer
for
your
thinking better and better of him as you know him more.
His
good
sense and good principles would delight you.--As far as the
man is
concerned, you could not wish your friend in better hands. His rank in society I
would alter if I
could, which is saying a great deal I assure
you, Emma.--You laugh at me
about William Larkins; but I could quite
as ill spare Robert Martin."
He wanted her to look up
and smile; and
having now brought herself not to smile too broadly-- she
did--cheerfully answering,
"You need not be at any
pains to
reconcile me to the match. I
think Harriet is doing extremely well.
Her
connexions may be worse than his. In respectability of
character,
there
can be no doubt that they are. I have been silent from
surprize
merely,
excessive surprize. You cannot imagine how suddenly it has
come on me! how peculiarly unprepared I was!--for I had reason
to
believe her very lately more determined against him, much
more,
than
she was before."
"You ought to know your
friend
best," replied Mr. Knightley; "but I should say she was a
good-tempered, soft-hearted girl, not likely to be very, very
determined
against any young man who told her he loved her."
Emma could not help
laughing as she
answered, "Upon my word, I believe you know her quite as well
as
I do.--But, Mr. Knightley, are you perfectly sure that she has
absolutely and downright accepted him.
I
could suppose she might in time--but can
she already?-- Did not you misunderstand him?--You were
both talking of other things; of business, shows of cattle, or
new
drills--and might not you, in the confusion of so many
subjects,
mistake him?--It was not Harriet's hand that he was certain
of--it was the dimensions of some famous ox."
The contrast between the
countenance and
air of Mr. Knightley and Robert Martin was, at this moment, so
strong to Emma's feelings, and so strong was the recollection
of
all that had so recently passed on Harriet's side, so fresh
the
sound of those words, spoken with such emphasis, "No, I
hope I know better than to think of Robert Martin," that she
was
really expecting the intelligence to prove, in some measure,
premature. It could
not be otherwise.
"Do you dare say this?"
cried
Mr. Knightley. "Do
you dare to
suppose me so great a blockhead, as not to know
what a man is talking of?-- What do you deserve?"
"Oh!
I always
deserve the best treatment, because
I never put up with any other; and, therefore, you
must give me a plain, direct answer.
Are
you quite sure that you understand the
terms on which Mr. Martin and Harriet now
are?"
"I am quite sure," he
replied,
speaking very distinctly, "that he told me she had accepted
him;
and that
there was no obscurity, nothing doubtful, in the words he
used;
and I think I can give you a proof that it must be so. He asked my opinion as to
what he was now
to do. He knew of
no one but Mrs. Goddard
to whom he could apply for information of her
relations or friends. Could
I mention
any thing more fit to be done,
than to go to Mrs. Goddard? I assured him that I could not. Then, he said, he would
endeavour to see
her in the course of this
day."
"I am perfectly
satisfied,"
replied Emma, with the brightest smiles, "and most sincerely
wish
them
happy."
"You are materially
changed since
we talked on this subject before."
"I hope so--for at that
time I was
a fool."
"And I am changed also;
for I am
now very willing to grant you all Harriet's good qualities. I have taken some pains
for your
sake, and for Robert Martin's sake, (whom I
have always had reason to believe as much in love with her as
ever,) to
get acquainted with her. I have often talked to her a good
deal. You must have
seen that I did. Sometimes,
indeed, I have thought you were
half suspecting me of pleading poor Martin's cause, which
was never the case; but, from all my observations, I am
convinced
of her
being an artless, amiable girl, with very good notions, very
seriously good
principles, and placing her happiness in the affections and
utility of domestic life.-- Much of this, I have no doubt, she
may
thank you for."
"Me!" cried Emma,
shaking her
head.--"Ah! poor Harriet!"
She checked herself,
however, and
submitted quietly to a little more praise than she deserved.
Their conversation was
soon afterwards
closed by the entrance of her father.
She
was not sorry. She
wanted to be alone. Her
mind was in a state of flutter and
wonder,
which made it impossible for her to be collected. She was in dancing,
singing, exclaiming
spirits; and till she had moved about, and talked
to herself, and laughed and reflected, she could be fit for
nothing rational.
Her father's business
was to announce
James's being gone out to put the horses to, preparatory to
their
now
daily drive to Randalls; and she had, therefore, an immediate
excuse for disappearing.
The joy, the gratitude,
the exquisite
delight of her sensations may be imagined.
The
sole grievance and alloy thus removed in
the prospect of Harriet's welfare, she was
really in danger of becoming too happy for security.--What had
she
to
wish for? Nothing,
but to grow more
worthy of him, whose
intentions and judgment had been ever so superior to her own. Nothing, but that the
lessons of her past
folly might teach her
humility and circumspection in future.
Serious she was, very
serious in her
thankfulness, and in her resolutions; and yet there was no
preventing a laugh,
sometimes in the very midst of them. She
must laugh at such a close! Such
an end of
the doleful disappointment of five weeks back!
Such a heart--such a Harriet!
Now there would be
pleasure in her
returning--Every thing would be a pleasure.
It
would be a great pleasure to know Robert Martin.
High in the rank of her
most serious and
heartfelt felicities, was the reflection that all necessity of
concealment from Mr. Knightley would soon be over. The disguise, equivocation,
mystery, so hateful to her to practise,
might soon be over. She could now look forward to giving him
that full and perfect confidence which her disposition was
most ready to welcome as a duty.
In the gayest and
happiest spirits she
set forward with her father; not always listening, but always
agreeing to what he said; and, whether in speech or silence,
conniving at the comfortable persuasion of his being obliged
to go
to
Randalls every day, or poor Mrs. Weston would be
disappointed.
They arrived.--Mrs.
Weston was alone in
the drawing-room:-- but hardly had they been told of the
baby, and Mr. Woodhouse received the thanks for coming, which
he
asked for, when a glimpse was caught through the blind, of two
figures passing near the window.
"It is Frank and Miss
Fairfax," said Mrs. Weston. "I
was just going to tell you of our agreeable
surprize in seeing him arrive this morning.
He
stays till to-morrow, and Miss Fairfax has
been
persuaded to spend the day with
us.--They are coming in, I hope."
In half a
minute they were in the
room. Emma was
extremely glad to see
him--but there was a degree of
confusion--a number of embarrassing recollections on each
side. They met
readily and
smiling, but with a consciousness which at first
allowed little to be said; and having all sat down again,
there
was
for some time such a blank in the circle, that Emma began to
doubt
whether the wish now indulged, which she had long felt, of
seeing
Frank
Churchill once more, and of seeing him with Jane, would yield
its proportion of pleasure. When Mr. Weston joined the party,
however, and when the baby was fetched, there was no longer a
want
of subject or animation-- or of courage and opportunity for
Frank
Churchill to draw near her and say,
"I have to thank you,
Miss
Woodhouse, for a very kind forgiving message in one of Mrs.
Weston's
letters. I hope
time has not made you
less willing to pardon. I
hope you do not
retract what you then said."
"No, indeed," cried
Emma, most
happy to begin, "not in the least. I am particularly glad to
see
and shake
hands with you--and to give you joy in person."
He thanked her with all
his heart, and
continued some time to speak with serious feeling of his
gratitude
and happiness.
"Is not she looking
well?"
said he, turning his eyes towards Jane. "Better than she ever
used
to
do?--You see how my father and Mrs. Weston doat upon her."
But his spirits were
soon rising again,
and with laughing eyes, after mentioning the expected return
of
the Campbells, he named the name of Dixon.--Emma blushed, and
forbade its being pronounced in her hearing.
"I can never think of
it," she
cried, "without extreme shame."
"The shame," he
answered,
"is all mine, or ought to be. But
is it possible that you had no suspicion?--I
mean of late. Early,
I know, you had
none."
"I never had the
smallest, I assure
you."
"That appears quite
wonderful. I was
once very near--and I wish I had-- it would
have been better. But
though I was always
doing wrong things, they were very bad wrong things, and
such as did me no service.-- It would have been a much better
transgression had I broken the bond of secrecy and told you
every
thing."
"It is not now worth a
regret," said Emma.
"I have some hope,"
resumed
he, "of my uncle's being persuaded to pay a visit at Randalls;
he
wants to
be introduced to her. When the Campbells are returned, we
shall meet them in London, and continue there, I trust, till
we
may
carry her northward.--But now, I am at such a distance from
her--is not
it hard, Miss Woodhouse?-- Till this morning, we have not once
met
since the day of reconciliation. Do not you pity me?"
Emma spoke her pity so
very kindly, that
with a sudden accession of gay thought, he cried,
"Ah! by the bye," then
sinking
his voice, and looking demure for the moment--"I hope Mr.
Knightley
is well?" He
paused.--She
coloured and laughed.--"I know you saw my
letter, and think you may remember my wish in your favour. Let me return your
congratulations.-- I
assure you that I have heard the news
with the warmest interest and satisfaction.--He is a man whom
I
cannot presume to praise."
Emma was delighted, and
only wanted him
to go on in the same style; but his mind was the next moment
in
his
own concerns and with his own Jane, and his next words were,
"Did you ever see such a
skin?--such smoothness! such delicacy!-- and yet without being
actually
fair.--One cannot call her fair. It is a most uncommon
complexion,
with
her dark eye-lashes and hair-- a most distinguishing
complexion! So
peculiarly the lady in it.-- Just
colour enough for beauty."
"I have always admired
her
complexion," replied Emma, archly; "but do not I remember the
time
when you found fault
with her for being so pale?-- When we first began to talk of
her.--Have you quite forgotten?"
"Oh! no--what an
impudent dog I
was!--How could I dare--"
But he laughed so
heartily at the
recollection, that Emma could not help saying,
"I do suspect that in
the midst of
your perplexities at that time, you had very great amusement
in
tricking
us all.--I am sure you had.-- I am sure it was a consolation
to
you."
"Oh! no, no, no--how can
you
suspect me of such a thing? I was the most miserable wretch!"
"Not quite so miserable
as to be
insensible to mirth. I
am sure it was
a source of high entertainment to
you, to feel that you were taking us all in.--Perhaps I am the
readier to
suspect, because, to tell you the truth, I think it might have
been some amusement to myself in the same situation.
I
think there is a
little likeness between us."
He bowed.
"If not in our
dispositions,"
she presently added, with a look of true sensibility, "there
is a
likeness in our destiny; the destiny which bids fair to
connect us
with two
characters so much superior to our own."
"True, true," he
answered,
warmly. "No, not
true on your
side. You
can have no superior, but
most true on
mine.--She is a complete angel. Look at her.
Is
not she an angel in every gesture?
Observe
the turn of her throat. Observe
her
eyes, as she is looking up at my father.-- You will be glad to
hear (inclining his
head, and whispering seriously) that my uncle means to give
her
all my
aunt's jewels. They
are to be new set.
I am
resolved to have some in an ornament for
the head. Will not it be beautiful in her dark
hair?"
"Very beautiful,
indeed,"
replied Emma; and she spoke so kindly, that he gratefully
burst
out,
"How delighted I am to
see you
again! and to see you in such excellent looks!--I would not
have
missed this meeting for the world. I should certainly have
called
at
Hartfield, had you failed to come."
The others had been
talking of the
child, Mrs. Weston giving an account of a little alarm she had
been
under, the evening before, from the infant's appearing not
quite
well. She believed
she had been
foolish, but it had alarmed her,
and she had been within half a minute of sending for Mr. Perry. Perhaps she ought to be
ashamed, but Mr.
Weston had been almost as uneasy
as herself.--In ten minutes, however, the child had been
perfectly
well again. This
was her history; and particularly
interesting it was to Mr. Woodhouse, who commended her very
much
for thinking
of sending for Perry, and only regretted that she had not done
it. "She should
always send for
Perry, if the child appeared in the
slightest degree disordered, were it only for a moment. She could not be too soon
alarmed, nor
send for Perry too often. It
was a pity,
perhaps, that he had not come last night; for, though the
child seemed well now, very well considering, it would
probably
have been better if Perry had seen it."
Frank Churchill caught
the name.
"Perry!" said he to
Emma, and
trying, as he spoke, to catch Miss Fairfax's eye. "My friend Mr. Perry! What
are they saying about Mr. Perry?--Has he been here this
morning?--And how does he travel now?--Has he set up his
carriage?"
Emma soon recollected,
and understood
him; and while she joined in the laugh, it was evident from
Jane's
countenance that she too was really hearing him, though
trying to seem deaf.
"Such an extraordinary
dream of
mine!" he cried. "I
can never
think of it without laughing.-- She hears us,
she hears us, Miss Woodhouse. I see it in her cheek, her
smile,
her
vain attempt to frown. Look at her.
Do
not you see that, at this instant, the
very passage of her own letter, which sent me the
report, is passing under her eye-- that the whole blunder is
spread before
her--that she can attend to nothing else, though pretending to
listen to the others?"
Jane was forced to smile
completely, for
a moment; and the smile partly remained as she turned towards
him, and said in a conscious, low, yet steady voice,
"How you can bear such
recollections, is astonishing to me!-- They will sometimes
obtrude--but how you
can court them!"
He
had a
great deal to say in return,
and very entertainingly; but Emma's feelings were chiefly with
Jane, in the argument; and on leaving Randalls, and falling
naturally
into a comparison of the two men, she felt, that pleased as
she
had been
to see Frank Churchill, and really regarding him as she did
with
friendship, she had never been more sensible of Mr.
Knightley's
high superiority of character. The happiness of this most
happy
day,
received its completion, in the animated contemplation of his
worth
which this comparison produced.
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