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Chapter 26
Mrs. Gardiner's caution to Elizabeth was
punctually and kindly given on the first favourable opportunity of
speaking to
her alone; after honestly telling her what she thought, she thus went
on:
"You are too sensible a
girl, Lizzy,
to fall in love merely because you are warned against it; and,
therefore, I am
not afraid of speaking openly. Seriously,
I would have you be on your guard. Do not
involve yourself or
endeavour to involve him in an affection which the want of fortune
would make
so very imprudent. I
have nothing to say
against him; he is a most interesting young man; and if he had the
fortune he
ought to have, I should think you could not do better.
But as it is, you must not let your fancy run
away with you. You
have sense, and we
all expect you to use it. Your
father
would depend on your resolution and good conduct, I am sure. You must not disappoint
your father."
"My dear aunt, this is
being
serious indeed."
"Yes, and I hope to
engage you to
be serious likewise."
"Well, then, you need
not be under
any alarm. I will
take care of myself,
and of Mr. Wickham too. He
shall not be
in love with me, if I can prevent it."
"Elizabeth, you are not
serious
now."
"I beg your pardon, I
will try
again. At present I
am not in love with
Mr. Wickham; no, I certainly am not.
But
he is, beyond all comparison, the most agreeable man I ever saw-- and
if he
becomes really attached to me-- I believe it will be better that he
should
not. I see the
imprudence of it. Oh!
that abominable Mr. Darcy! My
father's opinion of me does me the
greatest honour, and I should be miserable to forfeit it. My father, however, is
partial to Mr.
Wickham. In short,
my dear aunt, I
should be very sorry to be the means of making any of you unhappy; but
since we
see every day that where there is affection, young people are seldom
withheld
by immediate want of fortune from entering into engagements with each
other,
how can I promise to be wiser than so many of my fellow-creatures if I
am tempted,
or how am I even to know that it would be wisdom
to resist? All
that I can promise you, therefore, is not to be
in a hurry. I will
not be in a hurry to believe myself
his first object. When
I am in company
with him, I will not be wishing. In short, I will do my best."
"Perhaps it will be as
well if you
discourage his coming here so very often.
At least, you should not remind your mother of
inviting him."
"As I did the other
day," said
Elizabeth with a conscious smile: "very true, it will be wise in me to
refrain from that. But
do not imagine
that he is always here so often. It
is
on your account that he has been so frequently invited this week. You know my mother's ideas
as to the
necessity of constant company for her friends.
But really, and upon my honour, I will try to do
what I think to be the
wisest; and now I hope you are satisfied."
Her aunt assured her
that she was, and
Elizabeth having thanked her for the kindness of her hints, they
parted; a
wonderful instance of advice being given on such a point, without being
resented.
Mr. Collins returned
into Hertfordshire
soon after it had been quitted by the Gardiners and Jane; but as he
took up his
abode with the Lucases, his arrival was no great inconvenience to Mrs.
Bennet. His
marriage was now fast
approaching, and she was at length so far resigned as to think it
inevitable,
and even repeatedly to say, in an ill-natured tone, that she "wished
they
might be happy." Thursday
was to be
the wedding day, and on Wednesday Miss Lucas paid her farewell visit;
and when
she rose to take leave, Elizabeth, ashamed of her mother's ungracious
and
reluctant good wishes, and sincerely affected herself, accompanied her
out of
the room. As they
went downstairs
together, Charlotte said:
"I shall depend on
hearing from you
very often, Eliza."
"That you certainly
shall."
"And I have another
favour to ask
you. Will you come
and see me?"
"We shall often meet, I
hope, in
Hertfordshire."
"I am not likely to
leave Kent for
some time. Promise
me, therefore, to
come to Hunsford."
Elizabeth could not
refuse, though she
foresaw little pleasure in the visit.
"My father and Maria are
coming to
me in March," added Charlotte, "and I hope you will consent to be of
the party. Indeed, Eliza, you will be as welcome as either of them."
The wedding took place: the bride and bridegroom
set off for Kent
from the church door, and everybody had as much to say, or to hear, on
the
subject as usual. Elizabeth
soon heard
from her friend; and their correspondence was as regular and frequent
as it had
ever been; that it should be equally unreserved was impossible. Elizabeth could never
address her without
feeling that all the comfort of intimacy was over, and though
determined not to
slacken as a correspondent, it was for the sake of what had been,
rather than
what was. Charlotte's
first letters were
received with a good deal of eagerness; there could not but be
curiosity to
know how she would speak of her new home, how she would like Lady
Catherine, and
how happy she would dare pronounce herself to be; though, when the
letters were
read, Elizabeth felt that Charlotte expressed herself on every point
exactly as
she might have foreseen. She
wrote
cheerfully, seemed surrounded with comforts, and mentioned nothing
which she
could not praise. The
house, furniture,
neighbourhood, and roads, were all to her taste, and Lady Catherine's
behaviour
was most friendly and obliging. It
was
Mr. Collins's picture of Hunsford and Rosings rationally softened; and
Elizabeth
perceived that she must wait for her own visit there to know the rest.
Jane had already written
a few lines to
her sister to announce their safe arrival in London; and when she wrote
again,
Elizabeth hoped it would be in her power to say something of the
Bingleys.
Her impatience for this
second letter
was as well rewarded as impatience generally is.
Jane had been a week in town without either
seeing or hearing from Caroline. She
accounted for it, however, by supposing that her last letter to her
friend from
Longbourn had by some accident been lost.
"My aunt," she
continued,
"is going to-morrow into that part of the town, and I shall take the
opportunity of calling in Grosvenor Street."
She wrote again when the
visit was paid,
and she had seen Miss Bingley. "I
did not think Caroline in spirits," were her words, "but she was very
glad to see me, and reproached me for giving her no notice of my coming
to
London. I was
right, therefore, my last
letter had never reached her. I
inquired
after their brother, of course. He
was
well, but so much engaged with Mr. Darcy that they scarcely ever saw
him. I found that
Miss Darcy was expected to
dinner. I wish I
could see her. My
visit was not long, as Caroline and Mrs.
Hurst were going out. I
dare say I shall
see them soon here."
Elizabeth shook her head
over this
letter. It
convinced her that accident
only could discover to Mr. Bingley her sister's being in town.
Four weeks passed away,
and Jane saw
nothing of him. She
endeavoured to persuade
herself that she did not regret it; but she could no longer be blind to
Miss
Bingley's inattention. After
waiting at
home every morning for a fortnight, and inventing every evening a fresh
excuse
for her, the visitor did at last appear; but the shortness of her stay,
and yet
more, the alteration of her manner would allow Jane to deceive herself
no
longer. The letter which she wrote on this occasion to her sister will
prove
what she felt.
"My dearest Lizzy will,
I am sure,
be incapable of triumphing in her better judgement, at my expense, when
I
confess myself to have been entirely deceived in Miss Bingley's regard
for me.
But, my dear sister, though the event has proved you right, do not
think me
obstinate if I still assert that, considering what her behaviour was,
my
confidence was as natural as your suspicion. I do not at all comprehend
her
reason for wishing to be intimate with me; but if the same
circumstances were
to happen again, I am sure I should be deceived again.
Caroline did not return my visit till
yesterday; and not a note, not a line, did I receive in the meantime. When she did come, it was
very evident that
she had no pleasure in it; she made a slight, formal apology, for not
calling
before, said not a word of wishing to see me again, and was in every
respect so
altered a creature, that when she went away I was perfectly resolved to
continue the acquaintance no longer.
I
pity, though I cannot help blaming her.
She was very wrong in singling me out as she did; I
can safely say that
every advance to intimacy began on her side.
But I pity her, because she must feel that she has
been acting wrong,
and because I am very sure that anxiety for her brother is the cause of
it. I need not
explain myself farther; and though
we know this anxiety to be quite needless, yet if she feels it, it will
easily
account for her behaviour to me; and so deservedly dear as he is to his
sister,
whatever anxiety she must feel on his behalf is natural and amiable. I cannot but wonder,
however, at her having any
such fears now, because, if he had at all cared about me, we must have
met,
long ago. He knows
of my being in town,
I am certain, from something she said herself; and yet it would seem,
by her
manner of talking, as if she wanted to persuade herself that he is
really
partial to Miss Darcy. I
cannot
understand it. If I
were not afraid of
judging harshly, I should be almost tempted to say that there is a
strong
appearance of duplicity in all this. But I will endeavour to banish
every
painful thought, and think only of what will make me happy-- your
affection,
and the invariable kindness of my dear uncle and aunt.
Let me hear from you very soon.
Miss Bingley said something of his never
returning to Netherfield again, of giving up the house, but not with
any
certainty. We had
better not mention
it. I am extremely
glad that you have
such pleasant accounts from our friends at Hunsford.
Pray go to see them, with Sir William and
Maria. I am sure
you will be very
comfortable there.-- Yours, etc."
This letter gave
Elizabeth some pain;
but her spirits returned as she considered that Jane would no longer be
duped,
by the sister at least. All
expectation
from the brother was now absolutely over.
She would not even wish for a renewal of his
attentions. His character
sunk on every review of it; and as a punishment for him, as well as a
possible
advantage to Jane, she seriously hoped he might really soon marry Mr.
Darcy's
sister, as by Wickham's account, she would make him abundantly regret
what he
had thrown away.
Mrs. Gardiner about this
time reminded
Elizabeth of her promise concerning that gentleman, and required
information;
and Elizabeth had such to send as might rather give contentment to her
aunt
than to herself. His
apparent partiality
had subsided, his attentions were over, he was the admirer of some one
else.
Elizabeth was watchful enough to see it all, but she could see it and
write of
it without material pain. Her
heart had
been but slightly touched, and her vanity was satisfied with believing
that she
would have been his only choice, had fortune permitted it. The sudden
acquisition of ten thousand pounds was the most remarkable charm of the
young
lady to whom he was now rendering himself agreeable; but Elizabeth,
less
clear-sighted perhaps in this case than in Charlotte's, did not quarrel
with
him for his wish of independence.
Nothing, on the contrary, could be more natural; and
while able to
suppose that it cost him a few struggles to relinquish her, she was
ready to
allow it a wise and desirable measure for both, and could very
sincerely wish
him happy.
All this was
acknowledged to Mrs.
Gardiner; and after relating the circumstances, she thus went on:-- "I
am
now convinced, my dear aunt, that I have never been much in love; for
had I
really experienced that pure and elevating passion, I should at present
detest
his very name, and wish him all manner of evil.
But my feelings are not only cordial towards him;
they are even
impartial towards Miss King. I
cannot
find out that I hate her at all, or that I am in the least unwilling to
think
her a very good sort of girl. There
can
be no love in all this. My
watchfulness
has been effectual; and though I certainly should be a more interesting
object
to all my acquaintances were I distractedly in love with him, I cannot
say that
I regret my comparative insignificance.
Importance may sometimes be purchased too dearly. Kitty and Lydia take his
defection much more
to heart than I do. They
are young in
the ways of the world, and not yet open to the mortifying conviction
that
handsome young men must have something to live on as well as the plain."
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