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Chapter 46
Elizabeth had been a good deal
disappointed in not finding a letter from Jane on their first arrival
at
Lambton; and this disappointment had been renewed on each of the
mornings that
had now been spent there; but on the third her repining was over, and
her
sister justified, by the receipt of two letters from her at once, on
one of
which was marked that it had been mis-sent elsewhere. Elizabeth
was not surprised at it, as Jane
had written the direction remarkably ill.
They had just been
preparing to walk as
the letters came in; and her uncle and aunt, leaving her to enjoy them
in
quiet, set off by themselves. The
one
mis-sent must first be attended to; it had been written five days ago. The beginning contained an
account of all
their little parties and engagements, with such news as the country
afforded;
but the latter half, which was dated a day later, and written in
evident agitation,
gave more important intelligence.
It was
to this effect:
"Since writing the
above, dearest
Lizzy, something has occurred of a most unexpected and serious nature;
but I am
afraid of alarming you-- be assured that we are all well. What I have to say relates
to poor Lydia. An express came at twelve
last night, just as
we were all gone to bed, from Colonel
Forster, to inform us that she was gone off to Scotland with one of his
officers; to own the truth, with Wickham!
Imagine our surprise. To Kitty, however, it does not
seem so wholly unexpected. I
am very, very sorry. So
imprudent a match on both sides! But I am
willing to hope the best, and that his character has been misunderstood. Thoughtless and indiscreet
I can easily
believe him, but this step (and let us rejoice over it) marks nothing
bad at
heart. His choice
is disinterested at
least, for he must know my father can give her nothing.
Our poor mother is sadly grieved.
My father bears it better.
How thankful am I that we never let them know
what has been said against him! we
must
forget it ourselves. They
were off
Saturday night about twelve, as is conjectured, but were not missed
till
yesterday morning at eight. The
express
was sent off directly. My
dear Lizzy,
they must have passed within ten miles of us.
Colonel Forster gives us reason to expect him here
soon. Lydia
left a
few lines for his wife, informing her of their intention. I must conclude, for I
cannot be long from my
poor mother. I am
afraid you will not be
able to make it out, but I hardly know what I have written."
Without allowing herself
time for
consideration, and scarcely knowing what she felt, Elizabeth
on finishing this letter instantly
seized the other, and opening it with the utmost impatience, read as
follows: it had
been written a day later
than the conclusion of the first.
"By this time, my
dearest sister,
you have received my hurried letter; I wish this may be more
intelligible, but
though not confined for time, my head is so bewildered that I cannot
answer for
being coherent. Dearest
Lizzy, I hardly
know what I would write, but I have bad news for you, and it cannot be
delayed.
Imprudent as the marriage between Mr. Wickham and our poor Lydia would be, we are
now anxious to be assured
it has taken place, for there is but too much reason to fear they are
not gone
to Scotland. Colonel Forster came
yesterday, having left Brighton
the day before, not many hours after the
express. Though Lydia's short letter to Mrs. F. gave them to understand
that
they were going to Gretna Green, something was
dropped by Denny
expressing his
belief that W. never intended to go there, or to marry Lydia at all,
which was
repeated to Colonel F., who, instantly taking the alarm, set off from
B.,
intending to trace their route. He
did
trace them easily to Clapham, but no further; for on
entering that
place, they
removed into a hackney coach, and dismissed the chaise that brought
them from Epsom. All that is known after
this is, that they were seen to continue
the London
road. I know not
what to think. After
making every possible inquiry on that
side of
London,
Colonel F. came on into Hertfordshire, anxiously renewing them at all
the turnpikes, and at the inns in Barnet and Hatfield, but without any
success-- no
such people had been seen to pass through.
With the kindest concern he came on to Longbourn,
and broke his
apprehensions to us in a manner most creditable to his heart. I am sincerely grieved for
him and Mrs. F.,
but no one can throw any blame on them.
Our distress, my dear Lizzy, is very great. My father and mother
believe the worst, but I
cannot think so ill of him. Many circumstances might make it more
eligible for
them to be married privately in town than to
pursue their first plan;
and even
if he could form such a design against a young woman of Lydia's
connections,
which is not likely, can I suppose her so lost to everything? Impossible! I grieve to find, however,
that Colonel F. is not
disposed to depend
upon their marriage; he shook his head when I expressed my hopes, and
said he
feared W. was not a man to be trusted.
My
poor mother is really ill, and keeps her room.
Could she exert herself, it would be better; but
this is not to be
expected. And as to
my father, I never
in my life saw him so affected. Poor
Kitty has anger for having concealed their attachment; but as it was a
matter
of confidence, one cannot wonder.
I am
truly glad, dearest Lizzy, that you have been spared something of these
distressing scenes; but now, as the first shock is over, shall I own
that I
long for your return? I
am not so selfish,
however, as to press for it, if inconvenient.
Adieu. I take up my
pen again to do what I have
just told you I would not; but circumstances are such that I cannot
help
earnestly begging you all to come here as soon as possible. I know my dear uncle and
aunt so well, that I
am not afraid of requesting it, though I have still something more to
ask of
the former. My
father is going to London with
Colonel
Forster instantly, to try to discover her.
What he means to do I am sure I know not; but his
excessive distress
will not allow him to pursue any measure in the best and safest way,
and
Colonel Forster is obliged to be at Brighton again to-morrow evening. In such an exigence, my
uncle's advice and
assistance would be everything in the world; he will immediately
comprehend
what I must feel, and I rely upon his goodness."
"Oh! where, where is my
uncle?" cried Elizabeth, darting from her seat as she finished the
letter,
in eagerness to follow him, without losing a moment of the time so
precious; but
as she reached the door it was opened by a servant, and Mr. Darcy
appeared. Her pale
face and impetuous
manner made him start, and before he could recover himself to speak,
she, in
whose mind every idea was superseded by Lydia's
situation, hastily exclaimed,
"I beg your pardon, but I must leave you.
I must find Mr. Gardiner this moment, on business
that cannot be
delayed; I have not an instant to lose."
"Good God! what is the
matter?" cried he, with more feeling than politeness; then recollecting
himself,
"I will not detain you a minute; but let me, or let the servant go
after
Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner. You
are not well
enough; you cannot go yourself."
Elizabeth
hesitated, but her knees trembled under her and she felt how little
would be
gained by her attempting to pursue them. Calling back the servant,
therefore,
she commissioned him, though in so breathless an accent as made her
almost
unintelligible, to fetch his master and mistress home instantly.
On his quitting the room
she sat down,
unable to support herself, and looking so miserably ill, that it was
impossible
for Darcy to leave her, or to refrain from saying, in a tone of
gentleness and
commiseration, "Let me call your maid.
Is there nothing you could take to give you present
relief? A glass of
wine; shall I get you one? You
are very ill."
"No, I thank you," she
replied, endeavouring to recover herself.
"There is nothing the matter with me. I am quite well; I am only
distressed by some
dreadful news which I have just received from Longbourn."
She burst into tears as
she alluded to
it, and for a few minutes could not speak another word.
Darcy, in wretched suspense, could only say
something indistinctly of his concern, and observe her in compassionate
silence. At length
she spoke again. "I
have just had a letter from Jane,
with such dreadful news. It cannot be concealed from any one. My younger sister has left
all her friends--
has eloped; has thrown herself into the power of-- of Mr. Wickham. They are gone off together
from Brighton. You know
him too well to doubt the rest. She
has
no money, no connections, nothing that can tempt him to-- she is lost
for
ever."
Darcy was fixed in
astonishment. "When
I consider," she added in a
yet more agitated voice, "that I might have prevented it! I, who knew
what
he was. Had I but
explained some part of
it only-- some part of what I learnt, to my own family!
Had his character been known, this could not
have happened. But
it is all-- all too
late now."
"I am grieved indeed,"
cried Darcy;
"grieved-- shocked. But
is it
certain-- absolutely certain?"
"Oh, yes! They left Brighton
together on Sunday night,
and were traced almost to London,
but not
beyond; they are certainly not gone to Scotland."
"And what has been done,
what has
been attempted, to recover her?"
"My father is gone to London,
and Jane has
written to beg my uncle's immediate assistance; and we shall be off, I
hope, in
half-an-hour. But
nothing can be done--
I know very well that nothing can be done.
How is such a man to be worked on? How are they even
to be
discovered? I have
not the smallest
hope. It is every
way horrible!"
Darcy shook his head in
silent
acquiescence.
"When my eyes were
opened to his
real character-- Oh! had I known what I ought, what I dared to do! But I knew not-- I was
afraid of doing too
much. Wretched,
wretched mistake!"
Darcy made no answer. He
seemed scarcely
to hear her, and was walking up and down the room in earnest
meditation, his
brow contracted, his air gloomy. Elizabeth
soon observed,
and instantly understood it. Her
power
was sinking; everything must sink under such a proof of family
weakness, such
an assurance of the deepest disgrace.
She could neither wonder nor condemn, but the belief
of his
self-conquest brought nothing to her consolatory to her bosom, afforded
no
palliation of her distress. It
was, on
the contrary, exactly calculated to make her understand her own wishes;
and
never had she so honestly felt that she could have loved him, as now,
when all
love must be vain.
But self, though it
would intrude, could
not engross her. Lydia--
the
humiliation, the misery she was bringing on them all, soon swallowed up
every
private care; and covering her face with her handkerchief, Elizabeth
was soon
lost to everything else; and, after a pause of several minutes, was
only
recalled to a sense of her situation by the voice of her companion,
who, in a
manner which, though it spoke compassion, spoke likewise restraint,
said,
"I am afraid you have been long
desiring my absence, nor have I anything to plead in excuse of my stay,
but
real, though unavailing concern. Would
to Heaven that anything could be either said or done on my part that
might
offer consolation to such distress!
But
I will not torment you with vain wishes, which may seem purposely to
ask for
your thanks. This
unfortunate affair
will, I fear, prevent my sister's having the pleasure of seeing you at
Pemberley to-day."
"Oh, yes. Be so kind as to apologise
for us to Miss
Darcy. Say that
urgent business calls us
home immediately. Conceal
the unhappy
truth as long as it is possible, I know it cannot be long."
He readily assured her
of his secrecy;
again expressed his sorrow for her distress, wished it a happier
conclusion
than there was at present reason to hope, and leaving his compliments
for her
relations, with only one serious, parting look went away.
As he quitted the room,
Elizabeth felt
how improbable it was that they should ever see each other again on
such terms
of cordiality as had marked their several meetings in Derbyshire; and
as she
threw a retrospective glance over the whole of their acquaintance, so
full of
contradictions and varieties, sighed at the perverseness of those
feelings
which would now have promoted its continuance, and would formerly have
rejoiced
in its termination.
If gratitude and esteem
are good
foundations of affection, Elizabeth's
change of sentiment will be neither improbable nor faulty. But if otherwise-- if
regard springing from
such sources is unreasonable or unnatural, in comparison of what is so
often
described as arising on a first interview with its object, and even
before two
words have been exchanged, nothing can be said in her defence, except
that she
had given somewhat of a trial to the latter method in her partiality
for
Wickham, and that its ill success might, perhaps, authorise her to seek
the
other less interesting mode of attachment.
Be that as it may, she saw him go with regret; and
in this early example
of what Lydia's
infamy must produce, found additional anguish as she reflected on that
wretched
business. Never,
since reading Jane's
second letter, had she entertained a hope of Wickham's meaning to marry
her. No
one but Jane, she thought, could flatter herself with such an
expectation. Surprise
was the least of her feelings on
this development. While
the contents of
the first letter remained in her mind, she was all surprise-- all
astonishment
that Wickham should marry a girl whom it was impossible he could marry
for
money; and how Lydia could ever have attached him had appeared
incomprehensible. But
no it was all too
natural. For such an attachment as this she might have sufficient
charm; and
though she did not suppose Lydia
to be deliberately engaging in an elopement without the intention of
marriage,
she had no difficulty in believing that neither her virtue nor her
understanding would preserve her from falling an easy prey.
She had never perceived,
while the
regiment was in Hertfordshire, that Lydia
had any partiality for him; but she was convinced that Lydia
wanted
only encouragement to attach herself to anybody.
Sometimes one officer, sometimes another, had
been her favourite, as their attentions raised them in her opinion. Her affections had
continually been
fluctuating but never without an object.
The mischief of neglect and mistaken indulgence
towards such a girl--
oh! how acutely did she now feel it!
She was wild to be at
home-- to hear, to
see, to be upon the spot to share with Jane in the cares that must now
fall
wholly upon her, in a family so deranged, a father absent, a mother
incapable
of exertion, and requiring constant attendance; and though almost
persuaded
that nothing could be done for Lydia, her uncle's interference seemed
of the
utmost importance, and till he entered the room her impatience was
severe. Mr. and
Mrs. Gardiner had hurried back in
alarm, supposing by the servant's account that their niece was taken
suddenly
ill; but satisfying them instantly on that head, she eagerly
communicated the
cause of their summons, reading the two letters aloud, and dwelling on
the
postscript of the last with trembling energy, though Lydia had never
been a
favourite with them, Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner could not but be deeply
afflicted. Not Lydia
only, but
all were concerned in it; and after the first exclamations of surprise
and
horror, Mr. Gardiner promised every assistance in his power. Elizabeth,
though expecting no less, thanked him with tears of gratitude; and all
three
being actuated by one spirit, everything relating to their journey was
speedily
settled. They were
to be off as soon as
possible. "But what
is to be done
about Pemberley?" cried Mrs. Gardiner. "John told us Mr. Darcy was
here when you sent for us; was it so?"
"Yes; and I told him we
should not
be able to keep our engagement. That
is
all settled."
"What is all settled?"
repeated the other, as she ran into her room to prepare. "And are they upon such
terms as for her
to disclose the real truth? Oh,
that I knew
how it was!"
But wishes were vain, or
at least could
only serve to amuse her in the hurry and confusion of the following
hour. Had Elizabeth
been at leisure to be idle, she
would have remained certain that all employment was impossible to one
so
wretched as herself; but she had her share of business as well as her
aunt, and
amongst the rest there were notes to be written to all their friends at
Lambton, with false excuses for their sudden departure.
An hour, however, saw the whole completed;
and Mr. Gardiner meanwhile having settled his account at the inn,
nothing
remained to be done but to go; and Elizabeth, after all the misery of
the
morning, found herself, in a shorter space of time than she could have
supposed, seated in the carriage, and on the road to Longbourn.
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