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Chapter 59
"My dear Lizzy, where can you have
been walking to?" was a question which Elizabeth
received from Jane as soon as she
entered their room, and from all the others when they sat down to table. She had only to say in
reply, that they had
wandered about, till she was beyond her own knowledge.
She coloured as she spoke; but neither that,
nor any thing else, awakened a suspicion of the truth.
The evening passed
quietly, unmarked by
any thing extraordinary. The
acknowledged lovers talked and laughed, the unacknowledged were silent. Darcy was not of a
disposition in which happiness
overflows in mirth; and Elizabeth,
agitated and confused, rather knew that she was happy than felt herself
to be
so; for, besides the immediate embarrassment, there were other evils
before
her. She
anticipated what would be felt
in the family when her situation became known; she was aware that no
one liked
him but Jane; and even feared that with the others it was a dislike
which not
all his fortune and consequence might do away.
At night she opened her
heart to
Jane. Though
suspicion was very far from
Miss Bennet's general habits, she was absolutely incredulous here.
"You are joking, Lizzy. This cannot be! -- engaged
to Mr. Darcy! No,
no, you shall not deceive me. I
know it to be impossible."
"This is a wretched
beginning
indeed! My sole
dependence was on you;
and I am sure nobody else will believe me, if you do not. Yet, indeed, I am in
earnest. I speak
nothing but the truth. He
still loves me, and we are engaged."
Jane looked at her
doubtingly. "Oh,
Lizzy! it cannot
be. I know how much you dislike
him."
"You know nothing of the
matter. That is all
to be forgot.
Perhaps I did not always love him so well as I do now.
But in such cases as these, a good memory is
unpardonable. This
is the last time I
shall ever remember it myself."
Miss Bennet still looked
all
amazement. Elizabeth
again, and more seriously assured
her of its truth.
"Good Heaven! can it be really so! Yet now I must believe
you," cried
Jane. "My dear,
dear Lizzy, I would
-- I do congratulate you -- but are you certain?
forgive the question -- are you quite certain
that you can be happy with him?"
"There can be no doubt
of
that. It is settled
between us already,
that we are to be the happiest couple in the world. But are you
pleased,
Jane? Shall you
like to have such a
brother?"
"Very, very much. Nothing could give either
Bingley or myself
more delight. But
we considered it, we
talked of it as impossible. And
do you
really love him quite well enough? Oh, Lizzy!
do any thing rather than marry without affection.
Are you quite sure
that you feel what you ought to do?"
"Oh, yes! You will only think I feel
more than I ought
to do, when I tell you all."
"What do you mean?"
"Why, I must confess
that I love
him better than I do Bingley. I am afraid you will be angry."
"My dearest sister, now
be
serious. I want to
talk very
seriously. Let me
know every thing that
I am to know, without delay. Will
you
tell me how long you have loved him?"
"It has been coming on
so
gradually, that I hardly know when it began.
But I believe I must date it from my first seeing
his beautiful grounds
at Pemberley."
Another intreaty that
she would be
serious, however, produced the desired effect; and she soon satisfied
Jane by
her solemn assurances of attachment.
When convinced on that article, Miss Bennet had
nothing farther to wish.
"Now I am quite happy,"
said
she, "for you will be as happy as myself.
I always had a value for him.
Were it for nothing but his love of you, I must
always have esteemed
him; but now, as Bingley's friend and your husband, there can be only
Bingley
and yourself more dear to me. But
Lizzy,
you have been very sly, very reserved with me.
How little did you tell me of what passed at
Pemberley and Lambton! I
owe all that I know of it to another, not
to you."
Elizabeth told her
the motives of her secrecy. She
had been
unwilling to mention Bingley; and the unsettled state of her own
feelings had
made her equally avoid the name of his friend. But now she would no
longer conceal
from her his share in Lydia's
marriage. All was
acknowledged, and half
the night spent in conversation.
"Good gracious!" cried Mrs.
Bennet, as she stood at a window the next morning, "if that
disagreeable
Mr. Darcy is not coming here again with our dear Bingley! What can he mean by being
so tiresome as to
be always coming here? I
had no notion
but he would go a-shooting, or something or other, and not disturb us
with his
company. What shall
we do with him? Lizzy,
you must walk out with him again, that
he may not be in Bingley's way."
Elizabeth could
hardly help laughing at so convenient a proposal; yet was really vexed
that her
mother should be always giving him such an epithet.
As soon as they entered,
Bingley looked
at her so expressively, and shook hands with such warmth, as left no
doubt of
his good information; and he soon afterwards said aloud, "Mrs. Bennet,
have you no more lanes hereabouts in which Lizzy may lose her way again
to-day?"
"I advise Mr. Darcy, and
Lizzy, and
Kitty," said Mrs. Bennet, "to walk to Oakham Mount this morning. It is a nice long walk,
and Mr. Darcy has
never seen the view."
"It may do very well for
the
others," replied Mr. Bingley; "but I am sure it will be too much for
Kitty. Won't it,
Kitty?" Kitty
owned that she had rather stay at home.
Darcy professed a great curiosity to see the view
from the Mount, and Elizabeth
silently
consented. As she
went up stairs to get
ready, Mrs. Bennet followed her, saying,
"I am quite sorry,
Lizzy, that you
should be forced to have that disagreeable man all to yourself. But I hope you will not
mind it: it is all
for Jane's sake, you know; and there is no occasion for talking to him,
except
just now and then. So,
do not put
yourself to inconvenience."
During their walk, it
was resolved that
Mr. Bennet's consent should be asked in the course of the evening. Elizabeth
reserved to herself the application for her mother's.
She could not determine how her mother would
take it; sometimes doubting whether all his wealth and grandeur would
be enough
to overcome her abhorrence of the man.
But whether she were violently set against the
match, or violently
delighted with it, it was certain that her manner would be equally ill
adapted
to do credit to her sense; and she could no more bear that Mr. Darcy
should
hear the first raptures of her joy, than the first vehemence of her
disapprobation.
In the evening, soon after Mr. Bennet
withdrew to the library, she saw Mr. Darcy rise also and follow him,
and her
agitation on seeing it was extreme.
She
did not fear her father's opposition, but he was going to be made
unhappy; and
that it should be through her means -- that she, his favourite child,
should be
distressing him by her choice, should be filling him with fears and
regrets in
disposing of her -- was a wretched reflection, and she sat in misery
till Mr.
Darcy appeared again, when, looking at him, she was a little relieved
by his
smile. In a few
minutes he approached
the table where she was sitting with Kitty; and, while pretending to
admire her
work said in a whisper, "Go to your father, he wants you in the
library." She was
gone directly.
Her father was walking
about the room,
looking grave and anxious. "Lizzy,"
said he, "what are you doing? Are
you out of your
senses, to be accepting
this man? Have not
you always hated
him?"
How earnestly did she
then wish that her
former opinions had been more reasonable, her expressions more moderate! It would have spared her
from explanations
and professions which it was exceedingly awkward to give; but they were
now
necessary, and she assured him, with some confusion, of her attachment
to Mr.
Darcy.
"Or, in other words, you
are
determined to have him. He
is rich, to
be sure, and you may have more fine clothes and fine carriages than
Jane. But will they
make you happy?"
"Have you any other
objection," said Elizabeth,
"than your belief of my indifference?"
"None at all. We all know him to be a
proud, unpleasant
sort of man; but this would be nothing if you really liked him."
"I do, I do like him,"
she
replied, with tears in her eyes, "I love him.
Indeed he has no improper pride.
He is perfectly amiable.
You do not know what he really is; then pray
do not pain me by speaking of him in such terms."
"Lizzy," said her
father,
"I have given him my consent. He is the kind of man, indeed, to whom I
should never dare refuse any thing, which he condescended to ask. I now give it to you, if
you are resolved on
having him. But let
me advise you to
think better of it. I
know your
disposition, Lizzy. I know that you could be neither happy nor
respectable,
unless you truly esteemed your husband; unless you looked up to him as
a
superior. Your
lively talents would
place you in the greatest danger in an unequal marriage. You could scarcely escape
discredit and
misery. My child,
let me not have the
grief of seeing you unable to respect your partner in life. You know
not what
you are about."
Elizabeth, still more
affected, was
earnest and solemn in her reply; and at length, by repeated assurances
that Mr.
Darcy was really the object of her choice, by explaining the gradual
change
which her estimation of him had undergone, relating her absolute
certainty that
his affection was not the work of a day, but had stood the test of many
months
suspense, and enumerating with energy all his good qualities, she did
conquer
her father's incredulity, and reconcile him to the match.
"Well, my dear," said
he, when
she ceased speaking, "I have no more to say.
If this be the case, he deserves you. I could not have parted
with you, my Lizzy,
to any one less worthy."
To complete the
favourable impression,
she then told him what Mr. Darcy had voluntarily done for Lydia. He heard her with
astonishment.
"This is an evening of
wonders,
indeed! And so,
Darcy did every thing:
made up the match, gave the money, paid the fellow's debts, and got him
his commission!
So much
the better. It will
save me a world of trouble and
economy. Had it been your uncle's doing, I must and would have paid
him; but
these violent young lovers carry every thing their own way. I shall offer to pay him
to-morrow; he will
rant and storm about his love for you, and there will be an end of the
matter."
He then recollected her
embarrassment a
few days before, on his reading Mr. Collins's letter; and after
laughing at her
some time, allowed her at last to go -- saying, as she quitted the
room,
"If any young men come for Mary or Kitty, send them in, for I am quite
at
leisure."
Elizabeth's mind
was now relieved from a very heavy weight; and, after half an hour's
quiet
reflection in her own room, she was able to join the others with
tolerable
composure. Every thing was too recent for gaiety, but the evening
passed
tranquilly away; there was no longer any thing material to be dreaded,
and the
comfort of ease and familiarity would come in time.
When her mother went up
to her
dressing-room at night, she followed her, and made the important
communication. Its
effect was most
extraordinary; for on first hearing it, Mrs. Bennet sat quite still,
and unable
to utter a syllable. Nor
was it under
many, many minutes that she could comprehend what she heard; though not
in
general backward to credit what was for the advantage of her family, or
that
came in the shape of a lover to any of them.
She began at length to recover, to fidget about in
her chair, get up,
sit down again, wonder, and bless herself.
"Good gracious! Lord bless me! only think! dear me! Mr. Darcy! Who would
have thought it! And
is it really true?
Oh! my sweetest
Lizzy! how rich and
how great you will be! What pin-money, what jewels, what
carriages you will have! Jane's is nothing
to it
-- nothing at all. I
am so pleased -- so
happy. Such a
charming man! -- so
handsome! so tall!
-- Oh, my dear
Lizzy! pray
apologise for my having
disliked him so much before. I
hope he
will overlook it. Dear,
dear Lizzy. A
house in town! Every
thing that is
charming! Three
daughters married! Ten
thousand a year! Oh,
Lord! What will
become of me. I
shall
go distracted."
This was enough to prove
that her
approbation need not be doubted: and Elizabeth,
rejoicing that such an effusion was heard only by herself, soon went
away. But before
she had been three minutes in her
own room, her mother followed her.
"My
dearest child," she cried, "I can think of nothing
else! Ten thousand a year, and very likely more!
'Tis as good as a Lord!
And a special licence.
You must and shall be married by a special
licence. But my
dearest love, tell me
what dish Mr. Darcy is particularly fond of, that I may have it
tomorrow."
This was a sad omen of
what her mother's
behaviour to the gentleman himself might be; and Elizabeth found
that, though in the certain
possession of his warmest affection, and secure of her relations'
consent,
there was still something to be wished for.
But the morrow passed off much better than she
expected; for Mrs. Bennet
luckily stood in such awe of her intended son-in-law that she ventured
not to speak
to him, unless it was in her power to offer him any attention, or mark
her
deference for his opinion.
Elizabeth had the
satisfaction of seeing her father taking pains to get acquainted with
him; and
Mr. Bennet soon assured her that he was rising every hour in his esteem.
"I admire all my three
sons-in-law
highly," said he. "Wickham, perhaps, is my favourite; but I think I
shall like your husband quite as well as Jane's."
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