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Chapter 32
When the particulars of this
conversation were repeated by Miss Dashwood to
her sister, as they
very soon were, the effect on her was not entirely such
as the former had hoped to see.
Not that Marianne appeared to distrust the
truth of any part of it, for she
listened to it all with the most steady and submissive
attention, made neither objection nor remark, attempted no
vindication of Willoughby, and
seemed to shew by her tears that she
felt it to be impossible.
But though this behaviour assured
Elinor that
the conviction of this guilt was
carried home to her mind, though she saw with
satisfaction the effect of it, in her no longer avoiding
Colonel
Brandon when he called, in her speaking to him, even
voluntarily
speaking, with a kind of compassionate respect,
and though she saw her spirits less violently irritated
than before, she did not see her less wretched. Her mind did
become settled, but it was settled in a gloomy
dejection. She felt the loss of Willoughby's
character yet more heavily than she had felt the loss of his
heart;
his seduction and desertion of Miss Williams, the misery
of that poor girl, and the doubt of what his designs might
once have been on herself, preyed altogether so much on
her spirits, that she could not bring herself to
speak of what she felt even to Elinor; and, brooding over her
sorrows in silence, gave more pain to her sister than could
have been communicated by the most open and most frequent
confession of them.
To
give the feelings or the language of Mrs. Dashwood on
receiving and answering Elinor's
letter would be only to give a repetition of what her
daughters had already felt and said; of a disappointment
hardly
less painful than Marianne's, and an indignation even
greater than Elinor's. Long letters from her, quickly
succeeding each other, arrived to tell all that she suffered
and thought; to express her anxious solicitude for
Marianne, and entreat she would bear up with fortitude under
this misfortune. Bad indeed must the nature of Marianne's
affliction be, when her mother could talk of fortitude!
mortifying and humiliating must be the origin of
those regrets, which she could wish her not to indulge!
Against
the interest of her own individual comfort, Mrs. Dashwood had
determined that it
would be better for Marianne to be any where, at that time,
than at Barton, where every thing within her view would
be bringing back the past in the strongest and most
afflicting manner, by constantly placing Willoughby
before her, such as she had always seen him there. She recommended it
to her daughters, therefore, by all means
not to shorten their visit to Mrs. Jennings; the length of
which, though never exactly fixed, had been expected by all
to comprise at least five or six weeks.
A variety of occupations, of objects, and
of company, which could not be
procured at Barton, would be inevitable there, and might
yet, she hoped, cheat Marianne, at times, into some
interest beyond herself, and even into some amusement, much as
the ideas of both might now be spurned by her.
From
all danger of seeing Willoughby
again, her mother considered her to be at least
equally safe in town as in the country, since his
acquaintance must now be dropped by all who called
themselves her friends. Design could never bring them in each
other's way: negligence could never leave them
exposed to a surprise; and chance had less in its favour in
the
crowd of London than
even in the retirement of Barton,
where it might force him before her while paying that
visit at Allenham on his marriage, which Mrs. Dashwood,
from foreseeing at first as a probable event, had brought
herself to expect as a certain one.
She
had yet another reason for wishing her children to remain
where they were; a letter from
her son-in-law had told her that he and his wife were
to be in town before the middle of February, and she
judged it right that they should sometimes see their
brother.
Marianne
had promised to be guided by her mother's opinion, and she
submitted to it therefore
without opposition, though it proved perfectly different
from what she wished and expected, though she felt it to be
entirely wrong, formed on mistaken grounds, and that by
requiring her longer continuance in London it
deprived her of the only possible alleviation of her
wretchedness, the personal sympathy of her mother, and doomed
her
to such society and such scenes as must prevent her ever
knowing a moment's rest.
But
it was a matter of great consolation to her, that what brought
evil to herself would
bring good to her sister; and Elinor, on the other
hand, suspecting that it would not be in her power to avoid
Edward entirely, comforted herself by thinking, that
though their longer stay would therefore militate against
her own happiness, it would be better for Marianne than an
immediate return into Devonshire.
Her
carefulness in guarding her sister from ever hearing Willoughby's
name mentioned, was not thrown
away. Marianne, though without knowing it
herself, reaped all its advantage; for neither Mrs.
Jennings, nor Sir John, nor even Mrs. Palmer herself, ever
spoke
of him before her. Elinor wished that the same forbearance
could have extended towards herself, but that was
impossible, and she was obliged to listen day after day to the
indignation of them all.
Sir
John, could not have thought it possible. "A man of whom he
had always had
such reason to think well! Such a good-natured fellow! He did not believe there
was a bolder rider in England! It was an unaccountable
business. He wished him at the devil with all his
heart. He
would not speak another word to him, meet him
where he might, for all the world!
No, not if it were to be by the side of
Barton covert, and they were kept
watching for two hours together.
Such a scoundrel of a fellow! such a
deceitful dog! It
was only the last time they met that he had offered him one of
Folly's
puppies! and this was the end of it!"
Mrs.
Palmer, in her way, was equally angry. "She was determined to
drop his
acquaintance immediately, and she was very thankful that she
had
never been acquainted with him at all.
She wished with all her heart Combe Magna
was not so near Cleveland; but
it did not signify, for it was a great deal too far off to
visit; she hated him so much that she was resolved never
to mention his name again, and she should tell
everybody she saw, how good-for-nothing he was."
The
rest of Mrs. Palmer's sympathy was shewn in procuring all the
particulars in her power of the
approaching marriage, and communicating them to Elinor. She could soon
tell at what coachmaker's the new carriage
was building, by what painter Mr. Willoughby's
portrait was drawn, and at what warehouse Miss Grey's
clothes might be seen.
The
calm and polite unconcern of Lady Middleton on the occasion
was a happy relief to
Elinor's spirits, oppressed as they often were by the
clamorous kindness of the others.
It was a great comfort to her to be sure of
exciting no interest in one person at
least among their circle of friends: a great comfort to
know that there was one who would meet her without feeling
any curiosity after particulars, or any anxiety for
her sister's health.
Every
qualification is raised at times, by the circumstances of the
moment, to more
than its real value; and she was sometimes worried down by
officious condolence to rate good-breeding as more
indispensable to comfort than good-nature.
Lady
Middleton expressed her sense of the affair about once every
day, or twice, if the
subject occurred very often, by saying, "It is very
shocking, indeed!" and by the means of this continual
though gentle vent, was able not only to see the Miss
Dashwoods from the first without the smallest emotion, but
very soon to see them without recollecting a word
of the matter; and having thus supported the dignity of
her own sex, and spoken her decided censure of what
was wrong in the other, she thought herself at
liberty to attend to the interest of her own assemblies,
and therefore determined (though rather against the
opinion of Sir John) that as Mrs. Willoughby would at once be
a woman of elegance and fortune, to leave her card with her
as soon as she married.
Colonel
Brandon's delicate, unobtrusive enquiries were never unwelcome
to Miss
Dashwood. He had
abundantly earned the privilege of intimate
discussion of her sister's disappointment, by the friendly
zeal with which he had endeavoured to soften it,
and they always conversed with confidence.
His chief reward for the painful exertion
of disclosing past
sorrows and present humiliations, was given in the pitying
eye with which Marianne sometimes observed him, and the
gentleness of her voice whenever (though it did not
often happen) she was obliged, or could oblige herself
to speak to him. These assured him that his exertion had
produced an increase of good-will towards himself,
and these gave Elinor hopes of its being farther
augmented hereafter; but Mrs. Jennings, who knew nothing of
all this, who knew only that the Colonel continued as grave
as ever, and that she could neither prevail on him to make
the offer himself, nor commission her to make it for him,
began, at the end of two days, to think that, instead
of Midsummer, they would not be married till
Michaelmas, and by the end of a week that it would not be a
match at all. The good understanding between the
Colonel and Miss Dashwood seemed rather to declare that
the honours of the mulberry-tree, the canal, and the
yew arbour, would all be made over to her; and Mrs.
Jennings had, for some time ceased to think at all of
Mrs. Ferrars.
Early
in February, within a fortnight from the receipt of Willoughby's
letter, Elinor had the painful office of informing her sister
that he
was married. She had taken care to have the
intelligence conveyed to herself, as soon as it was known that
the ceremony was over, as she was desirous that
Marianne should not receive the first notice of it from the
public papers, which she saw her eagerly examining
every morning.
She
received the news with resolute composure; made no observation
on it, and at first
shed no tears; but after a short time they would burst
out, and for the rest of the day, she was in a state
hardly less pitiable than when she first learnt to expect the
event.
The
Willoughbys left town as soon as they were married; and Elinor
now hoped, as there could be
no danger of her seeing either of them, to prevail
on her sister, who had never yet left the house since
the blow first fell, to go out again by degrees as she had
done before.
About
this time the two Miss Steeles, lately arrived at their
cousin's house in Bartlett's
Buildings, Holborn, presented themselves again
before their more grand relations in Conduit and Berkeley
Streets; and were welcomed by them all with great
cordiality.
Elinor
only was sorry to see them. Their
presence always gave her pain, and
she hardly
knew how to make a very gracious return to the
overpowering delight of Lucy in finding her still in town.
"I
should have been quite disappointed if I had not found you
here still," said she
repeatedly, with a strong emphasis on the word. "But I always thought I
should. I was almost sure you would not leave London
yet awhile; though you told me, you know, at Barton,
that you should not stay above a month.
But I thought, at the time, that you would
most likely change your
mind when it came to the point.
It would have been such a great pity to
have went away before your brother
and sister came. And now to be sure you will be in no
hurry to be gone. I am amazingly glad you did not keep to your
word."
Elinor
perfectly understood her, and was forced to use all her
self-command to make it
appear that she did not.
"Well,
my dear," said Mrs. Jennings, "and how did you travel?"
"Not
in the stage, I assure you," replied Miss Steele, with quick
exultation; "we came
post all the way, and had a very smart beau to attend us. Dr. Davies was
coming to town, and so we thought we'd join him
in a post-chaise; and he
behaved very genteelly, and paid
ten or twelve shillings more than we did."
"Oh,
oh!" cried Mrs. Jennings; "very pretty, indeed! and the Doctor
is a single man,
I warrant you."
"There
now," said Miss Steele, affectedly simpering, "everybody
laughs at me so about the
Doctor, and I cannot think why.
My cousins say they are sure I have made a
conquest; but for my part I
declare I never think about him from one hour's end to
another. 'Lord!
here comes your beau, Nancy,' my cousin said
t'other day, when she saw him crossing the street to
the house. My beau, indeed! said I--I cannot think
who you mean. The Doctor is no beau of mine."
"Aye,
aye, that is very pretty talking--but it won't do-- the Doctor
is the man, I see."
"No,
indeed!" replied her cousin, with affected earnestness, "and I
beg you will contradict it,
if you ever hear it talked of."
Mrs.
Jennings directly gave her the gratifying assurance that she
certainly would not,
and Miss Steele was made completely happy.
"I
suppose you will go and stay with your brother and sister,
Miss Dashwood, when they
come to town," said Lucy, returning, after a cessation
of hostile hints, to the charge.
"No,
I do not think we shall."
"Oh,
yes, I dare say you will."
Elinor would not humour her by farther
opposition.
"What
a charming thing it is that Mrs. Dashwood can spare you both
for so long a time
together!"
"Long
a time, indeed!" interposed Mrs. Jennings. "Why, their visit
is but just
begun!"
Lucy
was silenced.
"I
am sorry we cannot see your sister, Miss Dashwood," said Miss
Steele. "I am sorry
she is not well--" for Marianne had left the room on their
arrival.
"You
are very good. My
sister will be equally sorry to miss the pleasure of seeing
you; but she has been very much plagued lately with
nervous head-aches, which make her unfit for company or
conversation."
"Oh,
dear, that is a great pity! but such old friends as Lucy and
me!--I think she
might see us; and I am sure we would not speak a
word."
Elinor,
with great civility, declined the proposal. Her sister was
perhaps laid down upon
the bed, or in her dressing gown, and therefore not able to
come to them.
"Oh,
if that's all," cried Miss Steele, "we can just as well go and
see her."
Elinor
began to find this impertinence too much for her temper; but
she was saved the
trouble of checking it, by Lucy's sharp reprimand, which now,
as
on many occasions, though it did not give much sweetness to
the manners of one sister, was of advantage in
governing those of the other.
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