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Chapter 37
Mrs. Palmer was so well at the
end of a fortnight, that her mother felt it no
longer
necessary to give up the whole of her time to her; and,
contenting herself with visiting her once or twice a day,
returned from that period to her own home, and her own habits,
in
which she found the Miss Dashwoods very ready to reassume
their former share.
About
the third or fourth morning after their being thus resettled
in Berkeley Street,
Mrs. Jennings, on returning from her ordinary visit to
Mrs. Palmer, entered the drawing-room, where Elinor
was sitting by herself, with an air of such hurrying
importance as prepared her to hear something
wonderful; and giving her time only to form that idea, began
directly to justify it, by saying,
"Lord!
my dear Miss Dashwood! have you heard the news?"
"No,
ma'am. What is
it?"
"Something
so strange! But
you shall hear it all.-- When I got to Mr. Palmer's, I found
Charlotte quite in a fuss about the child.
She was sure it was very ill--it cried, and
fretted, and was all
over pimples. So I looked at it directly, and, 'Lord!
my dear,' says I, 'it is nothing in the world, but
the red gum--' and nurse said
just the same. But
Charlotte, she would not be satisfied,
so Mr. Donavan was
sent for; and luckily he happened to just come in from Harley
Street, so he stepped over directly, and as soon as
ever he saw the child, be said just as we did, that it was
nothing
in the world but the red gum, and then Charlotte was
easy. And
so, just as he was going away again, it came
into my head, I am sure I do not know how I happened
to think of it, but it came into my head to ask him if
there was any news. So upon that, he smirked, and simpered,
and looked grave, and seemed to know something or other,
and at last he said in a whisper, 'For fear any
unpleasant report should reach the young ladies under your
care as to their sister's indisposition, I think it advisable
to say, that I believe there is no great reason
for alarm; I hope Mrs. Dashwood will do very well.'"
"What!
is Fanny ill?"
"That
is exactly what I said, my dear. 'Lord!'
says I, 'is Mrs. Dashwood ill?' So then it all
came out; and the long and the short of the matter, by all
I can learn, seems to be this.
Mr. Edward Ferrars, the very young man I
used to joke with you about (but
however, as it turns out, I am monstrous glad there was
never any thing in it), Mr. Edward Ferrars, it seems,
has been engaged above this twelvemonth to my cousin
Lucy!--There's for you, my dear!--And not a creature knowing a
syllable of the matter, except Nancy!--Could you have believed
such a thing possible?-- There is no great wonder in their
liking
one another; but that matters should be brought so
forward between them, and nobody suspect it!--that is
strange!--I never happened to see them together, or I am sure
I
should have found it out directly.
Well, and so this was kept a great
secret, for fear of Mrs. Ferrars, and neither
she nor your brother or sister suspected a word of
the matter;-- till this very morning, poor Nancy, who,
you know, is a well-meaning creature, but no conjurer,
popt it all out. 'Lord!' thinks she to herself, 'they are
all so fond of Lucy, to be sure they will make no
difficulty about it;' and so, away she went to your sister,
who was sitting all alone at her carpet-work, little
suspecting what was to come--for she had just been saying to
your brother, only five minutes before, that she thought to
make
a match between Edward and some Lord's daughter or
other, I forget who. So you may think what a blow it was to
all her vanity and pride.
She fell into violent hysterics
immediately, with such screams as reached your
brother's ears, as he was sitting in his own
dressing-room down stairs, thinking about writing a letter to
his steward in the
country. So up he flew directly, and a terrible
scene took place, for Lucy was come to them by that time,
little dreaming what was going on.
Poor soul! I
pity her. And I
must say, I think she was used very hardly; for
your sister scolded like any fury, and soon drove her into a
fainting fit. Nancy, she fell upon her knees, and
cried bitterly; and your brother, he walked about the
room, and said he did not know what to do.
Mrs. Dashwood declared they should not stay
a minute longer in
the house, and your brother was forced to go down
upon his knees too, to persuade her to let them stay till
they had packed up their clothes.
Then she fell into hysterics again, and he
was so frightened that he would
send for Mr. Donavan, and Mr. Donavan found the house in all
this uproar. The carriage was at the door ready to
take my poor cousins away, and they were just stepping
in as he came off; poor Lucy in such a condition,
he says, she could hardly walk; and Nancy, she
was almost as bad. I declare, I have no patience with your
sister; and I hope, with all my heart, it will be a match in
spite of her. Lord! what a taking poor Mr. Edward will
be in when he hears of it!
To have his love used so scornfully!
for they say he is monstrous fond of her, as
well he may. I should not wonder, if he was to be in
the greatest passion!--and Mr. Donavan thinks just
the same. He and
I had a great deal of talk about it; and
the best of all is, that he is gone back again to Harley
Street, that he may be within call when Mrs. Ferrars is told
of it, for she was sent for as soon as ever my cousins
left the house, for your sister was sure she would be in
hysterics too; and so she may, for what I care. I have no pity
for either of them. I
have no notion of people's making such a to-do about money and
greatness. There is
no reason on earth why Mr. Edward and Lucy
should not marry; for I am sure Mrs. Ferrars may afford to
do very well by her son, and though Lucy has next to
nothing herself, she knows better than any body how to
make the most of every thing; I dare say, if Mrs.
Ferrars would only allow him five hundred a-year, she would
make as good an appearance with it as any body else
would with eight. Lord! how snug they might live in such
another cottage as yours--or a little bigger--with two
maids, and two men; and I believe I could help them to a
housemaid, for my Betty has a sister out of place, that
would fit them exactly."
Here
Mrs. Jennings ceased, and as Elinor had had time enough to
collect her thoughts, she
was able to give such an answer, and make such
observations, as the subject might naturally be
supposed to produce. Happy to find that she was not suspected
of any extraordinary interest in it; that Mrs. Jennings (as
she had of late often hoped might be the case) had
ceased to imagine her at all attached to Edward; and happy
above all the rest, in the absence of Marianne, she felt
very well able to speak of the affair without
embarrassment, and to give her judgment, as she believed, with
impartiality on the conduct of every one concerned in
it.
She
could hardly determine what her own expectation of its event
really was; though she
earnestly tried to drive away the notion of its being
possible to end otherwise at last, than in the marriage
of Edward and Lucy. What Mrs. Ferrars would say and do,
though there could not be a doubt of its nature, she was
anxious to hear; and still more anxious to know how
Edward would conduct himself.
For him she felt much compassion;-- for
Lucy very little--and it cost her
some pains to procure that little;--for the rest of the party
none at all.
As
Mrs. Jennings could talk on no other subject, Elinor soon saw
the necessity of
preparing Marianne for its discussion.
No time was to be lost in undeceiving
her, in making her acquainted with the real
truth, and in endeavouring to bring her to hear it
talked of by others, without betraying that she felt any
uneasiness for her sister, or any resentment against Edward.
Elinor's
office was a painful one.--She was going to remove what she
really believed to be
her sister's chief consolation,--to give such
particulars of Edward as she feared would ruin him for ever in
her
good opinion,-and to make Marianne, by a resemblance in
their situations, which to her fancy would seem strong,
feel all her own disappointment over again.
But unwelcome as such a task must be, it was
necessary to be done,
and Elinor therefore hastened to perform it.
She
was very far from wishing to dwell on her own feelings, or to
represent herself as
suffering much, any otherwise than as the self-command
she had practised since her first knowledge of Edward's
engagement, might suggest a hint of what was practicable
to Marianne. Her narration was clear and simple; and
though it could not be given without emotion, it was not
accompanied by violent agitation, nor impetuous
grief.--That belonged rather to the hearer, for Marianne
listened with horror, and cried excessively.
Elinor was to be the comforter of others in
her own distresses, no less
than in theirs; and all the comfort that could be given
by assurances of her own composure of mind, and a very
earnest vindication of Edward from every charge
but of imprudence, was readily offered.
But
Marianne for some time would give credit to neither. Edward
seemed a second Willoughby; and
acknowledging as Elinor did, that she had loved him
most sincerely, could she feel less than herself! As for Lucy
Steele, she considered her so totally unamiable,
so absolutely incapable of attaching a sensible man,
that she could not be persuaded at first to believe,
and afterwards to pardon, any former affection of
Edward for her. She would not even admit it to have been
natural; and Elinor left her to be convinced that
it was so, by that which only could convince her, a
better knowledge of mankind.
Her
first communication had reached no farther than to state the
fact of the engagement, and
the length of time it had existed.--Marianne's feelings had
then broken in, and put an end to all regularity of
detail; and for some time all that could be done was to
soothe her distress, lessen her alarms, and combat her
resentment. The
first question on her side, which led to
farther particulars, was,
"How
long has this been known to you, Elinor? has he written to
you?"
"I have known it these four
months. When
Lucy first came to Barton Park last November,
she told me in confidence of her engagement."
At
these words, Marianne's eyes expressed the astonishment which
her lips could not utter. After
a pause of wonder, she exclaimed--
"Four
months!--Have you known of this four months?"
Elinor
confirmed it.
"What!--while
attending me in all my misery, has this been on your
heart?--And I have
reproached you for being happy!"--
"It
was not fit that you should then know how much I was the
reverse!"
"Four
months!"--cried Marianne again.--"So calm!-- so cheerful!--how
have you been
supported?"--
"By
feeling that I was doing my duty.--My promise to Lucy, obliged
me to be secret. I
owed it to her, therefore, to avoid giving any hint of the
truth;
and I owed it to my family and friends, not to create in
them a solicitude about me, which it could not be in my power
to
satisfy."
Marianne
seemed much struck.
"I
have very often wished to undeceive yourself and my mother,"
added Elinor; "and
once or twice I have attempted it;-- but without betraying my
trust, I never
could have convinced you."
"Four
months!--and yet you loved him!"--
"Yes.
But I did not love only him;--and while the comfort of others
was dear to me, I was glad to
spare them from knowing how much I felt.
Now, I can think and speak of it
with little emotion. I
would not have you suffer on my account; for I assure you I no
longer suffer
materially myself. I have many things to support me. I am not conscious of
having provoked the disappointment by any
imprudence of my own, I have borne it as much as possible
without spreading it farther.
I acquit Edward of essential misconduct. I
wish him very happy; and I am so sure
of his always doing his duty, that though now he may
harbour some regret, in the end he must become so. Lucy does not want
sense, and that is the foundation on which
every thing good may be built.--And after all, Marianne,
after all that is bewitching in the idea of a single and
constant attachment, and all that can be said of one's
happiness depending entirely on any particular person, it is
not meant--it is not fit--it is not possible that it
should be so.-- Edward will marry Lucy; he will marry a
woman superior in person and understanding to half her
sex; and time and habit will teach him to forget that
he ever thought another superior to her."--
"If
such is your way of thinking," said Marianne, "if the loss of
what is most valued
is so easily to be made up by something else, your
resolution, your self-command, are, perhaps, a
little less to be wondered at.--They are brought more
within my comprehension."
"I
understand you.--You do not suppose that I have ever felt
much.--For four months, Marianne, I
have had all this hanging on my mind, without being at
liberty to speak of it to a single creature; knowing that
it would make you and my mother most unhappy whenever
it were explained to you, yet unable to prepare you for it
in the least.-- It was told me,--it was in a manner
forced on me by the very person herself, whose prior
engagement ruined all my prospects; and told me, as I thought,
with triumph.-- This person's suspicions, therefore, I
have had to oppose, by endeavouring to appear indifferent
where I have been most deeply interested;--and it has not been
only once;--I have had her hopes and exultation to listen
to again and again.-- I have known myself to be divided from
Edward for ever, without hearing one circumstance that
could make me less desire the connection.--Nothing has
proved him unworthy; nor has anything declared him
indifferent to me.-- I have had to contend against the
unkindness of his sister, and the insolence of his mother; and
have suffered the punishment of an attachment, without
enjoying its advantages.-- And all this has been going on at a
time, when, as you know too well, it has not been my only
unhappiness.-- If you can think me capable of ever
feeling--surely you may suppose that I have suffered now. The composure
of mind with which I have brought myself
at present to consider the matter, the consolation
that I have been willing to admit, have been the effect
of constant and painful exertion;--they did not spring
up of themselves;-- they did not occur to relieve my spirits
at first.-- No, Marianne.--Then, if I had not been
bound to silence, perhaps nothing could have kept me
entirely--not even what I owed to my dearest friends--from
openly
shewing that I was very unhappy."--
Marianne
was quite subdued.--
"Oh!
Elinor," she cried, "you have made me hate myself for
ever.--How barbarous have I
been to you!-- you, who have been my only comfort, who
have borne with me in all my misery, who have seemed to be
only suffering for me!--Is this my gratitude?--Is this
the only return I can make you?--Because your merit cries
out upon myself, I have been trying to do it away."
The
tenderest caresses followed this confession. In such a frame
of mind as she was now
in, Elinor had no difficulty in obtaining from her
whatever promise she required; and at her request,
Marianne engaged never to speak of the affair to any one
with the least appearance of bitterness;--to meet Lucy
without betraying the smallest increase of dislike to
her;--and even to see Edward himself, if chance should bring
them together, without any diminution of her usual
cordiality.-- These were great concessions;--but where
Marianne felt that she had injured, no reparation
could be too much for her to make.
She
performed her promise of being discreet, to admiration.--She
attended to all that
Mrs. Jennings had to say upon the subject, with an
unchanging complexion, dissented from her in nothing, and was
heard three times to say, "Yes,
ma'am."--She listened to her praise of Lucy with only moving
from one chair
to another, and when Mrs. Jennings talked of
Edward's affection, it cost her only a spasm in her
throat.--Such
advances towards heroism in her sister, made
Elinor feel equal to any thing herself.
The
next morning brought a farther trial of it, in a visit from
their brother, who came
with a most serious aspect to talk over the dreadful affair,
and bring them news of his wife.
"You
have heard, I suppose," said he with great solemnity, as soon
as he was seated, "of the
very shocking discovery that took place under our roof
yesterday."
They
all looked their assent; it seemed too awful a moment for
speech.
"Your
sister," he continued, "has suffered dreadfully. Mrs. Ferrars
too--in short it has been a
scene of such complicated distress--but I will hope
that the storm may be weathered without our being any of us
quite overcome. Poor Fanny! she was in hysterics all
yesterday. But I would not alarm you too much.
Donavan says there is nothing materially to
be apprehended;
her constitution is a good one, and her resolution equal
to any thing. She has borne it all, with the fortitude
of an angel! She says she never shall think well of
anybody again; and one cannot wonder at it, after being
so deceived!-- meeting with such ingratitude, where so
much kindness had been shewn, so much confidence had
been placed! It was
quite out of the benevolence of her
heart, that she had asked these young women to her
house; merely because she thought they deserved some
attention, were harmless, well-behaved girls, and would be
pleasant companions; for otherwise we both wished very much
to have invited you and Marianne to be with us, while your
kind friend there, was attending her daughter.
And now to be so rewarded! 'I wish, with
all my heart,' says poor
Fanny in her affectionate way, 'that we had asked
your sisters instead of them.'"
Here
he stopped to be thanked; which being done, he went on.
"What
poor Mrs. Ferrars suffered, when first Fanny broke it to her,
is not to be
described. While
she with the truest affection had been planning a
most eligible connection for him, was it to be
supposed that he could be all the time secretly engaged to
another person!--such a suspicion could never have entered her
head! If
she suspected any prepossession elsewhere,
it could not be in that quarter.
'There, to be sure,' said she, 'I
might have thought myself safe.' She was quite
in an agony. We consulted together, however, as to
what should be done, and at last she determined to send for
Edward. He came. But
I am sorry to relate what ensued. All that Mrs. Ferrars could
say to make
him put an end to the engagement, assisted too as you
may well suppose by my arguments, and Fanny's entreaties,
was of no avail. Duty,
affection, every thing was disregarded. I never thought Edward
so stubborn, so
unfeeling before. His mother explained to him her liberal
designs, in case of his marrying Miss Morton; told him
she would settle on him the Norfolk estate, which, clear of
land-tax, brings in a good thousand a-year; offered even,
when matters grew desperate, to make it twelve
hundred; and in opposition to this, if he still persisted in
this
low connection, represented to him the certain penury
that must attend the match.
His own two thousand pounds she protested
should be his all; she would never see
him again; and so far would she be from affording him the
smallest assistance, that if he were to enter into any
profession with a view of better support, she would do all in
her power to prevent him advancing in it."
Here
Marianne, in an ecstasy of indignation, clapped her hands
together, and cried,
"Gracious God! can this be possible!"
"Well
may you wonder, Marianne," replied her brother, "at the
obstinacy which could
resist such arguments as these. Your exclamation is very
natural."
Marianne was going to retort,
but she remembered her promises, and forbore.
"All
this, however," he continued, "was urged in vain. Edward said
very little; but what he did
say, was in the most determined manner.
Nothing should prevail on him to give up
his engagement. He
would stand to it, cost him what it might."
"Then,"
cried Mrs. Jennings with blunt sincerity, no longer able to be
silent, "he
has acted like an honest man! I beg your pardon, Mr. Dashwood,
but if he had done otherwise, I should have thought
him a rascal. I have some little concern in the
business, as well as yourself, for Lucy Steele is my
cousin, and I believe there is not a better kind of girl in
the world, nor one who more deserves a good husband."
John Dashwood was greatly
astonished; but his nature was calm, not open to provocation,
and
he never wished to offend anybody, especially anybody of
good fortune. He therefore replied, without any
resentment,
"I
would by no means speak disrespectfully of any relation of
yours, madam. Miss
Lucy Steele is, I dare say, a very deserving young woman, but
in the
present case you know, the connection must be
impossible. And to have entered into a secret
engagement with a young man under her uncle's care, the
son of a woman especially of such very large fortune as
Mrs. Ferrars, is perhaps, altogether a little
extraordinary. In short, I do not mean to reflect upon the
behaviour of any person whom you have a regard for, Mrs.
Jennings. We all
wish her extremely happy; and Mrs. Ferrars's
conduct throughout the whole, has been such as every
conscientious, good mother, in like circumstances, would adopt. It has been
dignified and liberal. Edward
has drawn his own lot, and I fear it will be a bad one."
Marianne
sighed out her similar apprehension; and Elinor's heart wrung
for the
feelings of Edward, while braving his mother's threats, for
a woman who could not reward him.
"Well,
sir," said Mrs. Jennings, "and how did it
end?"
"I
am sorry to say, ma'am, in a most unhappy rupture:-- Edward is
dismissed for ever from his
mother's notice. He left her house yesterday, but where
he is gone, or whether he is still in town, I do not know; for
we of course can make no inquiry."
"Poor
young man!--and what is to become of him?"
"What,
indeed, ma'am! It
is
a melancholy consideration. Born to the prospect of such
affluence! I cannot
conceive a situation more deplorable.
The interest of two thousand pounds--how
can a man live on it?--and
when to that is added the recollection, that he might, but for
his own folly, within three months have been in the
receipt of two thousand, five hundred a-year (for Miss
Morton has thirty thousand pounds,) I cannot picture
to myself a more wretched condition.
We must all feel for him; and the more so,
because it is totally
out of our power to assist him."
"Poor
young man!" cried Mrs. Jennings, "I am sure he should be very
welcome to bed and
board at my house; and so I would tell him if I could see
him. It is not
fit that he should be living about at his
own charge now, at lodgings and taverns."
Elinor's
heart thanked her for such kindness towards Edward, though she
could not forbear smiling at
the form of it.
"If
he would only have done as well by himself," said John
Dashwood, "as all his
friends were disposed to do by him, he might now have been in
his
proper situation, and would have wanted for nothing. But as it is, it
must be out of anybody's power to assist
him. And there is
one thing more preparing against him, which
must be worse than all--his mother has determined, with a
very natural kind of spirit, to settle that estate upon
Robert immediately, which might have been Edward's,
on
proper conditions. I left her this morning with her lawyer,
talking over the business."
"Well!"
said Mrs. Jennings, "that is her revenge. Everybody has a way
of their own. But I
don't think mine would be, to make one son independent,
because another had plagued me."
Marianne
got up and walked about the room.
"Can anything be more galling to the spirit of
a man," continued John, "than to see his
younger brother in possession of an estate which might have
been his own? Poor Edward!
I feel for him sincerely."
A
few minutes more spent in the same kind of effusion, concluded
his visit; and with repeated
assurances to his sisters that he really believed there
was no material danger in Fanny's indisposition, and
that they need not therefore be very uneasy about it,
he went away; leaving the three ladies unanimous in
their sentiments on the present occasion, as far at least
as it regarded Mrs. Ferrars's conduct, the Dashwoods',
and Edward's.
Marianne's
indignation burst forth as soon as he quitted the room; and as
her vehemence
made reserve impossible in Elinor, and unnecessary in
Mrs. Jennings, they all joined in a very spirited
critique upon the party.
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